I was operated on in a private clinic by an ophthalmologist, strabismus...?

The operation was ineffective, as a result, I now have convergent strabismus, the eyelid did not open completely... I am traumatized and physically and mentally silent already.

My vision has now fallen, my eyes can't see like before, because the brain is switching. I... the eye just doesn't live, I'm afraid that the lens itself has been damaged.

For a month, the doctor told me that everything is fine, she admitted her fault, she wants to redo it, but I am in such a state that I am afraid of the consequences again... She said that the operation is at her expense, and I have to pay for the anesthesia.

The question is where is the truth, and if I refuse to go under the knife at all, will they return at least half of the money to me, or will I go to court??